I think I slept alright last night but did I?
I woke up twice to go the bathroom and once in a panic thinking I had overslept, but it was only 2:30. The curse of daylight savings is that I never ever got that extra hour of sleep from the fall. I simply kept waking up at the same time so “losing” an hour this weekend really wasn’t a thing.
Which is sad really. Is this a perimenopause thing?
Speaking of perimenopause, why didn’t anyone tell us?
Why am I just now finding out about the night sweats, the weight gain that seems to stick around the middle of my body, the inability to lose it, and that I might as well throw the scale away because IT WILL NOT CHANGE NO MATTER WHAT I DO?
Also the brain fog. I have always been a lover of lists but now the lists are crucial in my life to get anything done. Otherwise, a thought is like a fart in the wind.
On the one hand, I’m like OMG when will this end? I can’t wait for this to end!
Then I realize that when it ends, I’ll be significantly older and then I question if I am mentally ready for something that is coming whether I am ready or not?
Besides the obvious aches and pains, I don’t FEEL my age.
But then again, what is my age supposed to feel like?
In my 20s, being in my late forties felt like I would be OLD. I looked at my parents ( who now that I think about it, were very much active and vibrant and still in party mode) and thought they were old.
Now I’m like…what is old? Was Aaliyah right? Is age nothing but a number? ( please don’t take any R Kelly references from that).
Anyhoo, this was a stream of consciousness because this week marks exactly one month until I turn FORTY-EIGHT ( I think) and I’m having a mid life crisis because I’ll be damned if I approach my 50s in anything but the best health of my life because I’m vain and I really don’t want to end up on a bunch of meds, a walker or confined to a bed.
Sigh.
Happy Monday.
This was a stream of consciousness post. You simply write, no edits to grammer thoughts etc. I used to do these on my blog back in the day every Sunday I think.
Things from the Internet this week
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I’m currently in a reading slump( can’t finish anything) but I’m still excited about these 10 New Book releases coming this spring.
I follow the royals ( its a fun pastime) but all of these Kate, The Princess of Wales conspiracy theories and the way the British media treats her vs how they treated Meghan the Duchess is..striking. And I just hope they fired all of their media people cause this is a hot mess.
In a crazy world where it feels like everything is happening all the time, i love this substack about 5 Low lift ways to take care of yourself
The nerd in me wants this scanner so that I can catalog all of the books in my house and make my own library basically…Its on my birthday wish list…
I added this Crustless Quiche Lorraine to my meal plan this week. I haven’t made it in a while, I’ll share on IG when I do!
That’s not all, but that’s all I have this week.
Talk soon friends.
LaShawn
I turned 45 last month and perimenopause has been a part of my life for a couple of years now. The weight gain around the middle is the most frustrating part. I feel like it appeared so quickly, even though my diet and exercise didn’t really change much. I also have weird symptoms - like feeling like my skin is crawling. It’s not much fun, but I appreciate that more people seem to be talking about this stage in our lives now.
I’m needing out with you!!